on the path(e) of kunda.....
living with kunda....
the search for kunda and the light....
June 09, 2009
...and the wheel of light turned at my feet, swirling in clouds, only partly moving on a greater band turning ..partly moving ..and all swirled in clouds could no longer be beheld..and the world went on without me..my eyes seeking the flame and the great truth.
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we have wished and hoped for, as a very young idealistic person, to have the ability through our own energies to know the basic truth and if there is aura to be able to see it, with the naked eye, and understand it as part of the real truth of life.
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...finding my mind...
June 7, 2009
early this morning after all these years and years of various types and levels of pain and terrible suffering being unable to find my mind and my actual spiritual point of recognizable reference it was suddenly there, familiar, albeit momentary and ever fleeting at this time, nevertheless resiliently there and then of course i had to be patient during the waiting while everything within and without me comes to terms with more lengthy waiting during the strengthening of the factors of interweaving and interlocking of my various systems into workable union with my actual and real concentrated mind. (past, present and future intermingle here during adjustment)
It was such a relief to know I was becoming complete once more and was not going to have to continue this mental wreckage and ambiguous means of kunda spiritual development into the future of my life.
At 66 I would like to have an enjoyable future which probably means I have to have a mind. Also without a complete and spiritual mind I will not be able to do my personal spiritual work.
personal notes...
then i saw the flame outlined in gold light .. a thin flame in the air..moving until i could almost see it in straightforward vision and it stayed within an inch of my gaze moving when it did until in my exhaustion i could no longer behold it and then it was gone as i tried not to sleep for the wonder of this allowance by kunda..
July 1, 2009
Living with kunda...
development and application example of great nerve and intellect and connective system expression and points of as yet unsolvable dilemma in exhaustion and rehashing explanatory process on the page which may be resolved at a later date or left if not enough time to apply to process may lay on the page unresolved and not properly explained ...(one comes to the point where the word on the page explanation must be resolved at a later date but I had promised to show on the page for someone who wanted to see...the situation at this time in development of great nerve and connective factors to the intellectual capacity and the intelligent expression of mind and why certain participles of development could not be perfectly completed at this time .
typo spelling is in mechanistic manual process
Solving the Problems ..(the individual..the world..society..the country one lives in..)
The Tale and The Story
tales and stories have come down to us as today's still living generation(s) with a method in mind of ...teaching..entertainment..revenge..knowledge..experience of emotions including passion right or wrong..a hopefully safe way of showing the expressions of a society that up until today was former or present and may be future and one which can discern for itself the right pathway ethically and of principle no matter what the example of the tale or story shows..(which immediately foregoing phrase is not correct but one having reached morality mostly by an older age may forget that the immaturity of growing up may be manipulated by unscrupulous fostering methods of public use by bandits of the pretense of various kinds of goodwill.)
folklore (one of the uses of folklore) is probably the simple fact of relating thru the pretenses or uses of fiction...the facts or the verboten (forbidden) and why it is forbidden by the results on page for all to see and in the case of crooks getting away with crimes that the authorities can seemingly do little about at the time...an enlightening or a revenge of worry on the crooks about the real story or close to it on the page til the authority 'catch' when all is revealed and peace can remain truly once more (is what is hoped for in many cases).
what other answer except cruel unfairness and an unbalanced social atmosphere in the case of the tale of crimes against the innocent presented in a tale as though correct by hidden acceptance proxy of the ongoing society and expected continuing acceptance by the future.
I would expect a fairytale to be about fairies (as mine are) but the truth of many tales called 'fairy' is that they were actually folktales or stories passed down thru generations by word of mouth until later in time a version of some kind maybe completely the author's was placed on the written page, some a warning of crime and wrong in the world at a time when the lawforce was unable to to cover all aspects such as ...no computers..no or little genetic or dna identification means...these tales and stories managed to convey fearsome meaning to the possibility of some human relationships in a world where we hope most people were trying to raise their children to be 'good' and 'kind' in order to help create a merciful and principled world and did not want them to fall heir to the preying criminal who used courtesy and goodwill to befriend and trap the trusting.
many times these old stories and folktales were so frightening that parents could not read them to their children and tried to have them banned. I remember going thru various stages of adaptation to them and their means (the stories) as I grew through life and the impact of both life and the memories of these stories in various branches of telling affected me and the world around me...I remember being asked in my journey through life by many different kinds of people what my theory was on these matters and what did I think about various types of solutions...when I was a child and a young person I tended to lean towards the comfort of my feelings at various stages of life and development ...at a later age I began to look at protective knowledge and necessity of facts and fear of the lack of enough knowledge of the existent wrong...underneath it all I knew there was a problem..a problem we all were either not facing or could not face for fear above all may kill or maim or even devoid of the mental senses and in our society, in this case, we have two forms I have understood and that is the predator and the protector..in certain situations the predator gathers groups of knowledgeable and unknowledgeable and/or supportive means and the protector is so far not able to provide a meaningful enough solution for his/her lasting group ...perhaps the protector has not found a means to a 'group' which lasts effectively..perhaps he/she cannot yet..perhaps we as a society..a humane race of humans have not found the way without destroying the means along the path yet..that is one of the reasons why I have studied life and journeyed thru looking and observing and noting and yet the means has not yet appeared in the studious mind to affect the knowledge that makes enough sense to adapt to it and succeed in the name of good and harmony towards the peaceful and quiet environment.
The means whatever it is will effect a much greater group of correctly protective and a failing and lesser means and far lesser number of the predator...now to understand a further means and use of constructive techniques...the greater protector of the law forces is a predative series of individuals but in the correct way with the correct principles and ethics...the criminal predator is never correct and may keep groups in support of him or her by the pretenses of protection which eventually will not hold up and by which means his or her perversions and untrustworthinesses can be recognized unfortunately too late for many he or she suckered in and then said to be their own fault ...which is the mark of the more dangerous pervert hiding behind the words 'your own responsibility' ...when he or she has been ushering you thru the means and not letting you loose but will not agree that it is so. Predator in this case is criminal con job and hopefully a person can find the means to remove themselves from this plight of 'cradling in' by the criminal who is pretending to be the 'good guy' with the opportunity you can never get out of and gradually becomes the criminal burden of your own. Right now we do not seem to have a society which promotes healing away from the criminal and criminals are very perverse and have been...we must gain 'smarts' and 'means' and make sure the criminals do not break our avenues of either of those means for if there is nowhere to go mankind falls to the means of his own basic survival nature which is mostly animalistic and will function any way it can until its death which follows shortly after that means arrives.
One day I hope to find the answer...that mode of understanding..that essential knowledge..and pass it on to those who seek it...it may be a part of this religion and spirituality...the Starseede..and it may be just a simple knowledge that is already here but is being ignored or is as yet unexplained enough to understand it or is unrecognized as the answer.
I had hoped by sampling experience (some of it unwanted as I came upon it...some of it forced upon me...some of it accidental...some of it planned by kunda and spirit and put aside and forgotten until years later) to gain a foothold of mental and physical experience that my personal inner spirit and my kunda and my hopeful intelligence and intellect could recognize and discover the identification with the basic momentum of all life but all I have found so far (except that there are far more answers than this one small one) is that basic momentum that has been being used either does not include survival * (see below) and in this way >>> (here in trying to get so much factored information down onto the page I have unfortunately forgotten this phrase of application that belongs here...unfortunately because it is a very important factor however when I remember it I will fill it in here and then the method will seem more intact and make more sense ...[one of the things I found during kunda development is that you lose all specialized abilities at the beginning and must rebuild everything once more and larger and more complexedly and if you are able with the help of kunda and the accompanying personal electrical fields and bodies that you are busy unconsciously working on recuperating and putting back into lucid use once more...that certain abilities and aspects of even normal mentality or things like remembering long applications of intelligent matter organized onto the page ...become momentarily displaced and even tho you just had it...you no longer have it long enough to get sall of it written down properly..the brain mind energies and nerve (great nerve and its accompanying system and factors ...become exhausted and need to build strength slowly and steadily) and in the turmoil of regaining oneself and building or rebuilding permanent housing for the larger structure of oneself and hoping that kunda will not maim or kill you in its progress..one forgets somethings til much later..
* (see above)
or it did (include survival) but something overpowered it or removed it or pushed it back because it has for a long time become useless in the situations which abound here at this point in society. All these are possibilities and only suppositions from my personal experience however and the human state may include only and all of the methods that it reaps its rewards and sufferings from and may never be able to change except by what calibre of human beings is able to be born and taught the ways which reap the better results for all at any one time of existence.
An intelligent and meaningful calibre of human being however may not be able to be born in enough cases at one time of society to make any difference or any headway in the right momentum but...in nature which is in most part as much of this religion as we believe feasible for a 'normal' and 'natural' and harmonious humanity within the bounds of its 'master/mistress nature' and 'its own human nature' then 'natural' occurs and the right balance is ultimately found or the result of the balance of life or nature as we understand it will die...which may mean that what we call the end may be able to be brought about and may be being done so by nature but not looking to us like nature...and nature in its primal state of the great void and passionate clashing of chemicals and atmospheres may be born again so the great goddess or god may live once more in its natural state...this of course is all pertinent theory to what one chooses to believe and any level of 'natural' or 'nature' or 'normal' could ensue at any point except where man is recognizing nature in what we call a normal or natural form and working along with it instead of attempting a false counterpoint to the advantage of human false aims.
Well so much for the recognition in one aspect of the work of Great Nerve in the system of kundic capability and the possible application of helping the world help itself to correct means and today this is all that can be managed up to this point..to see and understand the intellectual compound and explanation may be helpful to those attempting to study the auric development in an intellectual capacity ..the possibility that in some cases development of the human aura may be beneficial and not destructive to oneself and others.
In a world where there is so much attempted damage for the gain of dope, illicit monies, and popular worthless favor of many kinds..there is still amongst some of the populace the attempt to do the right thing for the helpless, the victimized, the normal person and persons living in the society, those temporarily weakened in many ways,.. and still the attempt to correctly punish those who must be.. by law and the law maintainers of the authorities..and for the members of society to snub vigilantism and not to judge but to protect oneself from the convicted criminal for many today are victimized in many horrific ways even into committing crimes therefore recognizing too late what they have been pushed and cornered into by the victimizers..but to see the example as something one must not do oneself and the future society as one that does not do those things and to teach those matters that same way..the thing I found the most horrible was to know the helpless predated upon but even in a different case where both conflicters are strong and death or injury occurs...the moment of truth for the individual is in the loss of life or living with the loss of normal limb function..and when one must..mercy and detached caring seems to be the answer for ultimately one must live with oneself even when living with others...noone can live for you and everyone dies alone even if someone is there with you. This previous statement may be true or there may be true or there may really be a real religious being that is there at some people's death.. I know I have had powerful experiences when people I loved or were close to died and many people hold on to a religious image or symbol at time of death and even all throughout life. That may be why people do not wish to challenge their religious concepts but that can be used to damage them in a religion which preaches and upholds many wrong principles and ethics yet passes them off as correct by wrong explanation of real principle.
That is why I am striving to build my religion from basic answers and basic principle and from a basic point of reference ...which is >>> I the individual (whichever individual it is) must survive under the law of the whole society (country I live in) (amongst the rest of society) in which I live and all parts are interractive in the correct society.
Here we see the problem and problems right away of course and to the learned eye the previous statement although correct and nicely done can be a fortitude of fools amongst the difficulties of trying to make some organized constructive process out of the 'some various lacking parts'. Nevertheless, if't could be done. t'would be a better world...is the premise and hoped for future construction..that the answer will be understood one day ...put down on paper by kunda, spirit, amd (amid) myself and that it will be recognized by the human inherent nature as 'the answer' by natural means and the 'day of promise' will have begun..only to be brought about by the human world's study to understand and connect itself individually to the seed of its own life within and the glory of the universal life without...fortunately we are not all one...the only whole there is..is that of the universe which is made up of parts of itself called one thing by man's knowledge of application of his own mental understanding. The only way mankind is all the same is in its same species of which there are certain variations and then of course the individual application of dna structure from genesis to today.
And in that we may safely hold together but only as individuals towards the common cause of survival and existence and that only through principle and ethics by means of intelligent mercy and intellectual knowledge of the factors of the law with intelligent common explanation for the societal whole.
In this kind of society then convicted criminals would not be considered a part of the society but outcasts from the norm kept in a safe place for them and the members of society not breaking the law while they regained their possible sanity during the serving of their sentence unless put to death and if released after a period of time would be considered trying to work their way back in to society in the means and ways of correct procedure for societal life and under the law.
Society in this means is considered whole when harmonies balance and peace and quiet can be found in personal spaces and where there is intelligent counseling towards harmonies available where troublesome people attempt to convene with others but only counseling for the troublesome not those the troublesome wish to remove from their basically peaceful life. It does not take two to cause a problem and I have known many people who can hold up an argument on their own trying to include me in order to deface my life and waste my personal time. These are basically crooks trying to force the acceptance in society of the useless phrase 'it takes two to argue' and other useless worn out phrases. These crooks and their unthinking supporters who may mean well and think they know something may push these phrases because the real knowledge is lacking in society and the crooks are able to operate in this useless phrasial way because of that. Who of the non crooked wish to spend their time out in society or their personal time arguing with people using endless useless phrases in order to prove their ability to be troublesome. 'get my way' is the big underlying phrase of these types of crooks who ensnare the young minds...many into thinking their theories and empty phrases are correct while youth in their passion and as yet undeveloped minds search for answers and only find that even if the right answer is there intellectually already..the mind needs time and experience..hopefully safe experience ..to develop to where it can understand the information and apply it ...one may receive dubious answers if one goes out looking to find them.
And so we hope for time and patience and the development of understanding leading to the mastering of real knowledge and that will be the reward.
And so will mankind and womankind know itself (there is a slight difference in the natural) and the individual survive and society exist and the world will come to see itself for what it is and the human know the seed of its own inner self.
July 21, 2009
I remembered some things from before but when I did them effectively it felt very strange like an old puppet wired together for sentiment and unable to work properly ............. perhaps yet.
July 28, 2009
daily kunda...
don't ever condone their damage upon you...
then why do i have to sit in it every day
beginning to re-realize and become aware.........
one realization
....i'm continuing to form my own school of thought founded upon my own spiritual intelligence...
another realization
....i have a friend who likes bonsai....
...bonsai is not something i like...
one would think it a small difference except when i reflected on this difference as a focal point in a friendship that has many difficulties....i began to see what the problems were...the personality difference was so strict that it forbade a lengthy close relationship in many factors and on many levels...not everyone is made to get along smoothly and some like disharmony and some like harmony..
continuing realizations...
the world is in chess pieces right now instead of workable parts....
if correct law is not practised by the authorities...madness will ensue amongst the people...we do not know the form it will take...the people rely on correct law to proceed safely with everyday necessary tasks..
the big joke is heroin ...a joke by cruel people....
it is possible in cancer formation that the regular body cells do not know how to form due to noise interference...there used to be a law until the space program and satellites with their buzzing that there could be no noise between night hours of a certain time and that gives everyone's system a chance to rest know it or not and that might be one answer....where is that law now???
...there are nations where the criminals make the helpless into victims then into robotic criminals by the means of drugs. 'medicines' and 'tools' such as stun equipment and electrocution techniques and brainwashing...fear and threats...on themselves and their loved ones - and friends - how can this be stopped ?
those who run this are living at the bottom of the bucket as well as those they victimize into their organization...one day it may very well explode within that bucket and destroy all the contents.
smoking is frustration in action..
drinking alcohol is frustration in action..
taking dope ruins the (healthy) mind..one needs a healthy mind to think properly.
Sept. 27, 2009
people will bind you to their life mode if you have to live around them constantly
Sept 27, 2009
if you want a happy life
don't ask kunda for extreme measures knowledge
for if known that you know..your time and efforts will be
butchered by the egotistic
Oct 4, 2009
kunda........
the holy man
the beggar
the scrawny meditator
in old clothes
is appearing
with the clefts of the adept where the tendons meet
in the back of the hands and the top of the feet
and wily knows the world
but it thinks it knows him
and the world's evil
kills itself with its own methods
it falls on its own knife
and never again lives
and life is
growing things and eating them
and weaving from the growing
and water from the well
and pets for friends and nature
and solitude within the sphere
and music from within
in spare times
and rain when it comes
and sun rising every morn
and clouds to make it fair not burn
and moon rising every night
with natural light and magnetisms
and stories to write
and wisdoms to know
and the law of the universe
to figure out
from the natural vibrations
and some is in the life
and some is in the electricity atmospheric
and some is in the glass and the mirror
and kunda lives
in many ways
but no longer has to unravel
any evil
unravel and fall
like dominoes in a game
and nevermore be
a pattern unknown
always know the patterns of evil
for as it begins
it knows only consuming
and as it ends
it knows only consuming
itself.
the holy knows this
and does not participate
with evil
unless forced
and then leaves
as soon as possible
and never returns
it teaches its young
as best it can
what evil is
and tries to guide them
while yet young
and then it prays
that evil will die
evermore
and never be able to
harm the good (holy)
trying to be good
people again.
5/27/2010
..no new signs except some good aspects returning to the life
but since more poisons came into the life recently..physically, thru outer world means
we are now concentrating on healing ourself one more time as the many hundreds of times before we have been set upon by our enemies..
kunda has been helping with that
age is a difficult factor in healing..